Procrastination

Probably I am setting myself up for failure, but in what I can only think was a moment where procrastination seemed justifiable I made the decision to attempt Post a Day. The way I see it is that while I am currently utilizing this daily post to procrastinate on other things that probably should be worked on, I fully expect that soon enough the exact opposite will occur and I’ll find other things to do to avoid writing out a post each day. Personal history will show that for a number of reasons attempts at daily blogging have failed. I believe this is due to my own belief that I’m frightfully dull and thus have little upon which to blog. But even when I do have something which I feel merits a post I often have zero desire to bother doing so. Not to mention, life has a pesky way of making it difficult to take time to accomplish such a task what with all the books in the world to read and other shiny things to be distracted by. So, we shall see how this goes. I’ll say this much for now, I’m making no promises that I’ll get through another 364 consecutive days of posting nor will I promise not to resort to a photo post or other such randomness.

Anyway, things here remain ridiculously busy. Presently, I have managed to stave off undo panic about the number of things I wish to accomplish before guide dog training begins this Thursday. As this to-do list seems ever-growing, I anticipate this will change at any moment being that the more I think about said things to be done the more I feel I am overwhelming myself. And then I find it hard to motivate myself to do anything. At least in this particular instance, I am rather pleased that I can justify my own neurotic behavior.

As it stands I have accomplished one thing: I have taken down my holiday decorations and stored them away. I had initially planned to do this yesterday, but instead I spent the majority of my day fighting a strong urge to toss my computer through my office window. As I have not yet found a remedy for the inability to print things, I have not completely lost this desire since more and more it seems the only solution will be a complete hard drive reformat. I’m sure you can guess how thrilled this makes me. Especially when you consider that I have FIVE papers due by next Friday and I have not yet started writing a single one. This is mostly because two of them are reaction papers to reading I have not yet completed. And in case you forgot already, I am a procrastinator. My saving grace is that I work very well under pressure.

Aside from computer issues and schoolwork, there are a bunch of other things on this mental list. Chief among them is to write out the list so I can stop my lack of progress in working on it because I’m constantly trying to remember what’s on it. I also need to finish the letter and sort through dog stuff to determine what I wish to keep for Uschi and what I’ll pack to go with Yara. I haven’t bothered with the latter as yet since I want to wash her bed and blankets first. I don’t really have an excuse for why that hasn’t happened yet. Though I believe the justification I gave myself the other day was that I absolutely must clean this house from top to bottom before training starts . . . and that wasn’t happening until I claimed the space back from all the holiday festoonery.

With that checked off, I seem to be actively avoiding the list by writing this daily post which not only goes to prove my initial statement about procrastination, but is further proof of how dizzying my thought processes are. So, let me end this by stating how intensely curious I am as to how long this daily posting will occur before I end up procrastinating on it as well!